I’m so confused, I’ve just ended a 2 year relationship and feel so sad. We were so in love and I thought we were soulmates and meant to be. We fell in love very quickly and had brilliant times, but my boyfriend likes a drink. Every time he chose drink over me I told him it wouldn’t work as I’ve got a 12 year old child and my life is family based rather than pub based but he kept talking me round saying how much he loved me and wanted a family life with us. I’ve given him so many chances over the last 2 years but a few months ago he took me for a meal and when we got to the restaurant I noticed he was already quite drunk. I was so disappointed that he could disrespect me like that and could even think it was ok to drive me there in that condition. I told him it wasn’t acceptable and the next day he went on an 8 hour bender and drove home. I had a go at him about it and his reaction was that I wasn’t enough for him. I know this was a defensive reaction but it made me see him in a different light. He’s always liked a drink, regularly drinking in the afternoon, which I think has made him really lazy minded and stops him being involved in the family life I enjoy. After he upset me he apologised and said he’d change his ways, but things went further downhill until I got the strength to end it. Now he’s distraught and keeps begging me to try again, promising he’ll change, give up drinking and make a family life with me. I’m so upset all the time, feel like I’ve lost my best friend and love of my life and sometimes wonder if I should try again, but I can’t get past the way he disrespected me and my feelings. We don’t live together thank god, and at almost 50 years of age I can’t see him changing now. I just think sometimes of the life he’s promising now and wish it could be true for the sake of the love we have for each other. All opinions would be appreciated, thank you.