Hi, I'm just doing this to keep me in the right track with everything, any advice along the way would be good.
Where do I start.
6-7years ago I met my girls dad. I have a son who's not his. He has two other children.
We started of has just friends bit of fun at the weekend etc. He came across has fun charming hands on with his other children.I then fell pregnant with my 2nd child and we decided to give it ago, was spending time together anyway so thought might has well. That's when I started noticing the real him. The nasty angry self centred bloke he really is. While I stayed at home at weekends or out with my son he spent EVERY weekend in the local pub. If he wasn't at the pub he would be at home moaning about anything and everything. The tension that filled a room as soon has he came in it was awful. He treated my son ok at first, soon changed. He couldn't come into the front room without him moaning about something. He was never interested in anything he did or me. The bloke who I thought was involved in his previous children's life was nothing but that, he barely sees them and when he did it was only because he popped into his mum's when they where their. Weather he knew they was Thier or not. Doesn't pay for them or sees them but has them tattooed over him..... I thought once we had the baby he would change but if anything was worse. I have never been bullied in my life until he came into it. The way he used to speak to me was disgusting specially if he had a drink. We did come to blows twice. I literally couldn't do it anymore listening to him on one of his drunken ramages I lost it and we ended up fighting..... I then fell pregnant again with our 2nd child, the drinking countined so much so that when I went into labour I couldn't reach him and he missed the whole thing. He showed up the next morning stinking of drink. I kicked him out after that. But took him back time and time again.
This is pretty much how my life has been for the last 6years.i finally kicked him out for good 8months ago. BUT it's like we are still together cept he doesn't live here. The first 4months we broke up we hardly saw him unless he run out of money. Hes now decided he's a changed man AGAIN and hasn't drank for 4months but still has an awful temper and only really cares about himself. He comes round mine every single day and it's just to much. My issue is I either tell him to do one once and for all which means he won't bother with kids even tho he don't really anyway (him sitting in my house everyday makes him a dotting dad apparently) or stay like this till he meets someone else.... He does give me maitance now 50per week that will stop if I say no to. I feel like I'm in a no win situation. There's only so much more I can take tho. My girls love him that's the only thing stopping me from telling him to fuck off.....
Soooo that's it really sorry it's all over the place abit like my life ha.
I have no idea how to move forward with someone like him