Posted nearly 3 weeks ago re going no contact, was doing so well until yesterday.
He turned up and, more fool me, I let him in.
More " situation has changed now and I want to take the next step"
Brief rundown
.Met this guy a few years ago, after my 21 year relationship ended, all amicable.
Three months in I was dumped because he had 'heart problems' total lie it turns out.
Anyway, we reconnected Feb 18.
I had all the I've missed you so much, regretted letting me go, let's try again.
But, turns out he had met someone else and loaned/ given her his life savings to help out her daughter so we couldn't be open until he had his ££££s back. Apparently that relationship is over but, she who cannot be named, must never find out about me, he said she was moving abroad due to health issues, once her youngest had finished exams.
If out in public I had to use a different name, had to withhold my number if calling and never able to visit him, as his place was a mess and he wanted no reminders of me in his home if we broke up again!
He also thinks the ex has put a tracker on his car ffs. So never parks at mine.
During the last few months, if he thought I may be meeting someone else ( happened at beginning of year, told me I was the only woman for him, puppy dog eyes etc.) Or ended the so called relationship, he would up the ante.Now I'm feeling so stupid and so fucking angry at him, for trying to spin a yarn and even more angry at myself.
I lost my son a few years back at Xmas so this is not the best time of year for me but he turns everything around to him, at the moment his elderly great uncle is dying, apparently.
I also have a hospital appointment next week which I'm a little worried about, have a friend coming for hand hold as he 'doesn't do hospitals'.
Unfortunately we live in the same small village and I dread seeing him, as I know he'll turn on the charm again and boy, does he have a way with words.
If I was reading this about someone else I'd tell them to run and never look back, so why am I finding it so difficult?