Not sure what response I want to this post but just want to unload my thoughts and feelings. I’m 43 and ex DPis 37. I have 2 dc 23 and 22 from a previous marriage . We have no children together as he is infertile.
My 7 year relationship ended in April. It didn’t end well and I had asked him to move out when I found out he had been on dating sites and meeting other women while keeping me at arms length and making me feel guilty that everything was in my head
I thought I was over him til I saw him the other day with a new woman. She was everything I’m not - dark hair , younger than him etc.
And I immediately felt like I had the breath sucked out of me and burst into tears and turned and walked the other direction.
I was so over come with jealousy that hurt that I cried for the next two hours.
I’m not on FB or instagram as he would accuse me of stalking him on there when I saw him adding women and girls and calling him out. I deleted both my accounts and thought he had too as he knew I felt insecure about him doing this .
I rang my friend and she told me that she had looked him up on FB and he had a profile pic of them both together and his relationship status had changed. This is a new account of his.
I feel I’m being childish that he has moved on so quickly as I had hoped that we might still be able to work things out . I feel so pathetic and foolish for having these thoughts as he had obviously detached himself from our relationship long before we finished and that he was obviously pushing me to end things rather than have the balls to do it himself.
I feel worse now then I did in April. Is this normal ?has anyone else been through this ?