For fuck's sake... 🙄

[EverFallenInLove]

I have stupidly fallen for a friend of mine.

I can't have him and, even if I could, can think of a million and one reasons why it would be a bad idea anyway. I wouldn't ever say anything to him or want him to suspect. And, frankly, it's not me.

I'm just sitting in the car in the carpark at the moment passing time and listening to a recording he sent me of a song he wrote. It's so beautiful and I'm such a soppy, unloved arse that im sitting here with tears rolling down my face 🙄🙄

Life is just so unfair at times!! 🤔

Echo @Zaphodsotherhead
I have found that real love developed for after time a long time.
Going through hardships together and stuff life throws at your.

After 25 years I love dh more than ever.

Your life maybe be full but this man is filling a void.

Maybe time to do some self reflecting and figure what you want (not a married man) and how you're going to get it.
You sound like someone who is a go getter. Good luck.

You're not helping yourself though are you? Stop indulging in this.

I think he knows and is enjoying it.

Otherwise why would he send you that song. Are you reading into the song which has caused these feelings to be heightened now?

Like Robin says, he is filling a void.

So give yourself a wobble. Try get him out of your head in this way and treat him and think of him as a friend only.

Think a bit of space isnt a bad thing if that is possible.

Thanks.

I guess it is filling a void. I don't 'do' relationships for a few reasons so suggestions to try online dating etc just arent going to happen. But I suppose I am feeling a lack of love.

I know it isnt 'real'. I'm not stupid. My post was intended to be a bit light hearted because it's been a very long time since I had feelings for anyone and I would never have expected to feel like this about him. And I don't particularly like it.

I don't think he knows. The song isn't that sort of song. It does speak to me but on a level he wouldn't be aware of and in no way related to him.

That's the thing, *Zaphod'. I'm aware of his bad points - I know that it would be a terrible pairing even if it could happen. I suppose it's just very rare that I 'connect' with someone and very rare I feel any chemistry with someone.

I suppose it's nice to know it can happen. But a bit shit it's with someone I can't have. To be clear, he's not done/said anything inappropriate.