Feel so strange.
We’ve been friends for 4 years, have super similar (quite specific) interests which is why we get on. I’ve never been attracted to him but we get on well and he’s kind and caring. Just so confused that that happened (2 weeks ago) when I went to visit him. It wasn’t awkward afterwards but the next day I felt weird and messaged him saying I didn’t want it to ruin our friendship or make things awkward. He agreed and we said we’d move on and go back to normal. Been trying to figure out how I feel about it all in my head for a full two weeks and can’t get my head around it. Then he’s up my way next week (we live a couple of hours apart now) and wants to see me. I’m super nervous as I’m not sure how it will feel and I’m worried what he might say! Also for the record I’m not the sort of person to sleep around at all, hadn’t dtd in over a year and only when I’m in relationships - apart from now!! - (just to clarify so I don’t get any judgy comments!). I’m not sure what to do!! Any advice? Anyone been in this situ?