Not going back

[upups]

Any advice on not going back into an abusive relationship or getting over one. I can't get back with him right now anyway as we have bail conditions but I'm scared I will when they are dropped. I miss him. I know rationally I shouldn't as there weren't exactly very many happy times anyway. I know he doesn't love me but I still do love him. I know that I'm young and I'll meet someone else but what if I don't? Or I do and they are just as bad or worse.

I just want to be over him and to hate his guts, I feel like my family and friends don't get why I don't feel that way. I don't either I just still do love him and he's all I can think about.

You need to get support or some form of counseling. Women's Aid?

This will hurt short term, but it will hurt a lot more long term if you go back in to an abusive relationship. Be kind to yourself. Go for walks, take baths, listen to your favourite music, watch Netflix - anything to distract yourself. The longer you persevere and stop yourself from contacting him, the easier it will become.

This is not what love is. Bail conditions, fear and police are not love. Sadly you have grown accustomed to being treated badly. Break the cycle!