Please help again!

[Custardcreamz]

Please I'm sorry for pestering you all again I jsut have no one else to turn to ( I don't speak with my mum)

Please, I have started emotional affair and came home today to end it with current boyfriend and we both are crying and says he donst want loose me and he will sell all his games and is sorry has been neglecting me that it truly hurts him to know he's upset me and Now I am torn! For god sake.... Part of me thinks why am I throwing away 7 years and he is willing to change and try and we both love each other so much it hurts and I could regret leaving him then I think we could be happy and sort it but then I have started EA so I can't been happy can I?? Jesus life and love is difficult I wish some higher power can make a decision for me 😩😰 I'm a mess with it all.
(Again no kids or marriage)
How do you decide what hell to do 😭😭😭

End it. Take time for yourself and work out what you want from life and a relationship

You started an EA for a reason.

Your boyfriend’s ‘change’ will be temporary to get you to stay.

Even if your EA doesn’t evolve into a proper relationship, clearly this one isn’t working for you.