This has been going on for some time. My partner of 15 years had an affair because he said he was looking for attention. He lied and lied about where he was and after awhile i found out they were sleeping together. He said that she could have been anybody because she showed him affection. Anyway she didn't know anything about me and she didn't want to know. My now ex moved to his sisters and said he was ashamed of what he had done ans and felt bad because he had abandoned his son. I agreed that if we were to move forward and it was over with the other woman that we could work on being amicable for the sake of our son.he is autistic and has appointments and so on and that was the whole point. He is only 4. So we were trying to work on things and he has only seen his son a handful of times and I found out he had been messaging her agian. I asked him about it and yes i was angry and he said he was just having flack at work because they work together and was trying to smooth things out. He said he didn't want to be with her because he just didn't feel right in himself. Before all this happened I found out I was pregnant and we talked and he said he didn't want the family unit to change and was worried that another baby might have problems and would make it more difficult. I thought about this and had a termination. I had to do it by myself and now I know that the day i did it was the day he began sleeping with her. So today he agian said that he wanted to put everything to one side for the sake of our son and then in the next breathe said no he loves her and if its going to cause problems he won't see my son anymore. I feel so upset by all of this. I don't really have much of a support system so I have to care for my son 100 % of the time. I have no job because of the circumstances so he pays for everything. I just feel so upset and alone and don't know where to turn