Hi all. Just wanted to write a few things down and to maybe have some input / advice.
I was in a mentally abusive relationship from 10 years. me and DS left and started new life. I was back on the dating scene but hated every minute. I found I was not very good at being single and found I wasn’t comfortable being alone due to never being alone so wasn’t used to it.
I went in several dates and during that time I partially became i would say obsessed with this one man, who was very attractive, dressed nice etc etc but his personality was very self absorbed.. he was an absolute idiot, he was still in contact with his ex and would lie to me and say he was with his friends when he wasn’t - he didn’t need to lie as we was just seeing each other! I don’t know what kept me going back. Maybe the thrill / drama - I don’t know! We decided to call it a day, although he would frequently message to tell me how beautiful I was! I’d see him at least 3/7 days on the school run.
Things started to cool down and that was it, I blocked him from everything so I couldn’t see him / contact him and vice versa. 4 months went on and I had a date with someone else, who seemed like they was sent from heaven. Looks/personality/future goals was / is everything I was looking for. The spark and connection was just unreal! Fast forward he is now my DH and we have a lovely life together. He’s my lover and best friend. I truly adore him!
However I seen the other guy in the car the other day ( I don’t see him in school run anymore as he moved ) he was behind me in another car. My heart was in my mouth but I was happy to see him. We don’t wave ( not sure why as it didn’t end badly ) is thinking of him, again not too sure why. I find myself wanting to bump into him, to say hi! I’d never cheat on my DH. but I feel terrible for thinking like this. Anyone had similar issues?