I was with my previous partner for 4 years (16 until 22). We split in May - my decision. He was always very busy which I appreciated as he had a high stress job. However, he began to spend less and less time with me and more time in the pub. I snapped one day and demanded for him to meet with me so we could discuss it. He refused as he was too busy, so I ended things with him. It was quite a snap decision but I felt that it was building up to it and inevitable.
He moved on very quickly and within a month was in a new relationship that was plastered all over Facebook. We have some mutual friends who insisted it wouldn't last. Eventually it all ended between them. I had to see him as he had some documents for my car (he could have posted these but I think I wanted to see him so I could show off how well I was doing... not). I ended up crying and admitting that I missed him. He agreed with me and insisted that he had changed, he still loved me and things would be different. We agreed to go out together the following evening for a drink and a chat. The next day came and I waited until 8pm without hearing from him. I text him and he explained he was busy and his plans had ran later than he thought they would. I told him not to worry about going out as I was tired, I was absolutely devastated but hid this from him.
A few days later I rang him (after a few drinks admittedly) and asked him if he could pick myself and a friend up. I could hear a female in the background so I told him not to worry and abruptly hung up. It turned out he had been seeing someone new for a few weeks, although he denied this when I asked him. However, he told a mutual friend that he had in fact been with the woman that night. I cut all contact with him, blocked him on everything and solemnly vowed to move on.
Fast forward to today. I have recently met a nice guy. He is sweet, thoughtful and we get along great. He is older than me at 25 and seems very together. However, I cannot stop comparing him to my ex. It's actually driving me insane, there is nothing wrong with this guy - he is attractive and sweet, I just can't seem to shake this feeling. I caved in and unblocked and texted my ex today, just to see how he was, he said his life has gone downhill since we split but did not say much more than that.
I just want him to crumble and beg me to get back together with him, why is this?! Am I crazy?!