Long story try to keep short. Partner of 10 years(two kids) went to family wedding last year. Made an argument to ensure I didnt go. Took the kids. Came back and said "selling the house,moving back" 4 hours away to where we moved from. Completely disconnected from me. Went on already booked holiday where he taunted me "make the most of it,im gone when we get back" Was in bits whole holiday. Made it clear he cant just sell andd
expect us to follow. Kids settled etc. Anyway with that he was normal and nice and said we would make a go of it
. Whole year of not really getting on. Twice taunted me "I did cheat you deserved it" then convinced me he had just said it to hurt me. My gut feeling was off scale. Found out other week he has been messaging ex if around 16 years ago (mother of his grown up Daughter). Reminiscing about old times,how she still loved him and they should give it another go. Him telling her how horrible I have been to him. I dont get on with his parents(they are very interfering and when he has seen them we row). This could have been going on for months. He could have done more,will I ever know. Im distraught. Feel so betrayed that he is talking to her about our relationship, our kids and making me out to be an awful person. Never knew emotional cheating would be so painfu. I said it would have been easier if he had with some random person. One minute he is sorry,next he is his usual cocky self. Not really doing much to reassure me. If it wasnt for kids I would be gone. Im too old in the tooth for drama! Keep convincing myself I can get throufh this but im crying every night he is at work. Not sure why posting . Havent anyone close by to talk to xx