I really need your help an advice, I'm really not sure what to do......
I live with my mil & fil, partner an 3 kids.
My mil is awful an plays mind games, one minute she wants to talk to you, next minute she behaves like your not even there!!
It's fairly obvious they don't like me, I don't get told about any news I don't get asked to go out with her nothing, but yet I cook clean, make sure foods on table for when they get home from work!!! Mil does nothing, even if she has to make food it's like the end of the world!! She has a hard day at work an she don't talk to me like its my fault, I work too an maybe 4 times out of the month she has to cook, but even that's a total mission for her. My 2nd child adores her to the point he doesn't want to talk to me actually says go away, I don't want to talk to you, he doesn't want me to do anything for him which breaks my heart!!
Where as my lil girl was born she didn't even bother holding her for the 1st week.
My dh sil is everything to her an I'm nothing that's how I feel, I gave never got that loving relationship feeling from her, I'm always thinking it's me an my fault but deep down I know it's not me!!
I don't get any support from the other half regards to his mother, but on the either hand I don't have anyone else I can speak to due to not talking to my own parents in over 10 years.
I came Into this family thinking I would be able yo make them my family too but that's never going to happen, I'm fed up of all the mind games being played not just with me but with my eldest son from a previous marriage. I think about leaving, since having my 2 babies I have gone through suicidal depression because of all this, I cry myself to sleep because I gave no one to talk to, I lost all my friends because I put these people 1st.