Hey I’m new to all this so bare with me. I’ve been in a relationship for just over two years, first 6 months or so were great, but then things changed and he displayed very controlling behaviours, manipulation, always putting me down and having a laugh at my expense. Cutting a long story short the past few weeks have just been mentally exhausting. I think he has broken up with me, although he still continues to message me of course telling me how it is me who has pushed him away, how I have continued to push him away for months and his patience has broken. He keeps things inside for days then blows and just fires insults at me, I’m a liar, there’s not an honest bone in my body, I keep making mistakes, I only see him when it suits me. I don’t feel like I have pushed him away, I feel it’s the opposite, I feel like I have to beg him for intimacy, he never wants to make love to me, it’s like it’s a chore to him. It was never like this at the start so is it me that is pushing him away? If I confront him about the way he treats me he just ignores it but will tell me endlessly how bad I am. Why does he continue to message me if I’m that bad? Would he not just totally make a break from me if he didn’t want to be with me?? Or is this just his way of keeping a hold on me and controlling me?? I’m mentally exhausted and I can’t say any more than I have to him, I tell him I love him all the time, he fell out with me last week over me not texting him till a certain time at night, I can’t win! I think I know the answer deep down, I just hurt so much at the moment, I love him and I would never push him away. I must sound absolutely pathetic xx