To ask how I move past this broodiness

[Pepperwand]

We have two wonderful sons who are still very little (baby and preschooler) and I feel so lucky to have them. However I just cannot shake the feeling that I want another baby. DH is adamant that he doesn't want to and we always agreed we would plan for two DC so I agree that his feelings on the matter trump mine.

Even with all of the practicalities however (we wanted two with a small age gap to be "done" with creating our family sooner rather than later) I just can't move past the broodiness. It's like I'm mourning every milestone with DS2 as it's the last time I'll have a newborn, last time I'll breastfeed, last time baby will be in our bedroom with us etc etc and I just feel so sad about it.

DH and I are only early 30s so I feel young to be saying that's it, we're done but on the other hand this was always what we planned.....so why do I feel like I want to change the plan? For what it's worth I am absolutely sure that DH would not change his mind on this and I know it isn't fair to pressure him.

Sorry for the rambling post, I'd appreciate thoughts and advice on what to do....

I think it’s perfectly normal to feel this way. And I also remember similar feelings with my second one, when he was a baby.
Another bout of broodiness often happens in late 30s when your fertility is about to go and body/mind seems to crave one more baby.

In your place - I’d give it a few years. Soon when your baby isn’t in a lying position all day - and you run around after two active boys, and breaking up scuffles - you might realise that two boys with small age difference is a lot of work.... Or - both of you might realise you would love another one once these two start growing up a bit.
Good luck, whichever way it all turns out.