Evening all. Am feeling a bit pathetic at the moment. Have just bought a new house and am panicking over that. I have anxiety anyway so feel it's going to fall down or blow up at any moment. Hope I'll feel better once we actually move in.
Am also 33 weeks pregnant and in a very on off relationship with the father. I fucking love him and want to be with him but he's not wanting and/or not ready for that with me. So super hormonal, anxious and on edge. Think the house purchase has sealed the deal of us not being together properly. Not so long ago I thought we'd get somewhere together.
Tonight he helped me with some diy jobs around my new house. I'm crap at diy and know nothing lol. I'd hoped he'd come back to mine after for a hug and 
maybe. I'd assumed he would perhaps naively. And because I'm sad I'd been looking forward to it all weekend and through a hectic day at work today.
Anyway he didn't. He went home. I know he has to get up early as he has his son as ex working early. So now I'm just laid in bed alone reading mumsnet and Facebook and scaring myself with ridiculous things that could go wrong with my house and my labour 