I'm 39 and my husband that left me 2 weeks ago is 41
I ended up pregnant using withdrawal method which he thinks is impossible but it clearly is
He didn't want the baby, said it was too soon as we have a son already, he listed all the things it would complicate. He became distant and refused to talk to me because I wanted the baby, we had arguments and fallouts and he left
I aborted my baby for him, I felt instant regret because now I don't have either of them, if id known I was going to be alone id have kept the baby, I did it for him as I felt pushed into it to mend our relationship
I've had to block his number as I'm grieving for the loss of my baby and he is saying awful things to me, has gone round his family members saying I'm stopping him seeing his son when I have agreed to let him have him every second weekend and two weeknights, my son is still breastfeeding so I think this is reasonable, he doesn't
He hasn't once mentioned the baby or said sorry for what he put me through or even thanked me for doing what he wanted. I can't come to terms with someone I loved so much being so cruel and I desperately want my baby back, I had the feeling it was a girl and keep picturing what she would have looked like, I feel like a murderer that she didn't get a chance at life because I put his feelings before my own and seriously don't think I will ever get over the guilt, someone please tell me how to cope and whether I've done the right thing blocking him as I'm really raw right now