So looong story, my back ground is I’m a full time dad of two boys, they have no contact with their mum and are 13 and 18. I work full time and do well tbh, own home etc. So I have had a bit of a hectic year, I’ve had relationships in the past that never worked out mostly due to the fact my partners have had mental health issues and things just didn’t work out. So I met a woman last year through POF, like a breath of fresh air, we seemed to have things in common and we had the same look on love etc. We had been together a year last week, our circumstances are that she also has children, 4 of them, plus she has uni and although 3 of her children are older teenagers, she’s also got a young boy of 3. So getting quality time together was difficult, we literally seen each other 1-2 times a week. We have been on and off during the relationship as it’s quite stressful, one of her kids is autistic too, so there is a quite a lot of drama, plus I’ve recently found out she has fibromyalgia which can bring its issues. She is a nice person though and we enjoy each other’s company. About 3 months ago, my cousin got in contact who was living in South Africa, his visa had expedited years ago, however he had been living there for 13 years. Before he left for South Africa he was caught drunk driving and gave false details to the police and never attended court. So during our conversation he has admitted he would like to come home, so my mistake I agreed he could stay with me. So he came home the day before I was going on holiday for two weeks, he was arrested at the airport and taken to court. He was very misleading saying he didn’t know what his judgement was, unusual but then admitted he was being put on tag for 2 months and a driving ban of 2 years. It transpires he was lying and was actually 3 months tag, so not a good start. During the holiday about a week in, I organised him getting work through a friend. I came back from holiday and he hadn’t taken my friend up on his offer, I couldn’t believe it. Ever really he did take up the offer and continued to work. Now he didn’t drink through the week, it would come in close to 7pm on a Friday and had would be drinking. 6 weeks ago I arranged that he would be moving out st the beginning of October as this is when he is off the tag. So Friday night he comes in, a little drunk, so having banter I’ve said he looked drunk, laughing. He took an attitude and started doing like a drunk walk as if he was being asked to walk a line from a police officer. So things got heated and in the end I’ve had to ask him to leave, so he packed his things and left, I don’t know where he went, no thanks from him, nothing. So I text my girl to say basically I’m pissed off and to explain the situation, and to tell her I wasn’t happy in the relationship as it stands because we don’t see each other, she took offence and instead of asking how we could improve things, she took the defensive line, said I won’t hear from her anymore and blocked my number on WhatsApp. I’m 39 and she’s 37, so we are supposed to be mature at this age, so anyway, just had a really hectic weekend, feel all kinds of emotion, guilty because I asked my cousin to leave, a bit down over the relationship ending, just needed to get it off my chest as I don’t have many people I can talk too