NC for this thread- I have been with my DH for 7 years... we have 2 young children.
Recently I have been extremely unhappy in our marriage, we have a big age gap and I met DH when I was 18. We were married quickly and got pregnant straight away. I was completely over the moon with everything and thought I had found what I was looking for.
But fast forward to now and I've been feeling really lost in myself. I've started to feel like I settled down way too young. It's not the fact that I've missed out on anything but more that I'm worried as I've got older and obviously become a parent and matured, I feel like I've grown in a different direction to my partner. We get along but small things he does winds me up, he's extremely jokey and constantly making stupid comments in situations where it's just not needed. He thinks I've become boring and way too serious.
I don't think either of us are wrong but I just feel like if we were picking again now we wouldn't end up with each other, so really we are staying together for the sake of the kids. I struggle to imagine my life without him but I think that's more of a scared feeling because its all I've really known.
I hate the thought of splitting up my family and I really don't like the idea of having to be without my kids every other weekend for example... I've really struggled with separation anxiety since they were born. I am also a sahm which I love and it would be a big change in my life and the kids life if I had to work and the kids had to go to nursery every day.
I do still love him and there are times we are happy but I am unhappy more of the time. We don't really have a good sex life anymore because if I'm honest I'm just not into it. I feel like we have no connection anymore.
Is it worth trying to re connect and fix our relationship or do you think we are wasting each other's time?