Have NC.
So lately I’ve been feeling very sad alternating with angry/irritable, sense of dread when thinking about the future. It’s hard to describe how i’m feeling as my emotions are all over the place. I’m not sleeping well which isn’t helping my mood either.
Worried about the effect this is having on my marriage, I don’t know how DH is putting up with me as he has a lot on his plate at the mo with work stress. I’m trying to control my emotions but it’s so hard, I’m impatient and snappy and can’t find any enthusiasm for anything.
My closest friend moved away approx 6 months ago and I feel that I have nobody to talk to except DH, but don’t want to worry him too much. obviously he’s aware that something is wrong and I’ve talked to him a little but as I said he has a lot on at work right now and I don’t want to burden him with this. Still in contact with friend but it’s just texts every few weeks now, she has a very busy life, basically she’s moved on and there’s a big time difference involved too. No family to talk to.
I’m not sure why I’m posting, if anyone has any advice about how to better manage my feelings and not let this affect my marriage so much would be great. All I know is that I no longer recognise myself and feel like shit.