Oh OP I know that trapped feeling well.
Shame and guilt keep you there, plus a heafty helping of fear.
The guilt and shame don't belong to you though. These belong solely to him. He fooled you in to believing that the nice guy was him. He fooled you that he is just flawed and that you would be unreasonable not to support him. He kept you on shifting ground so that you kept taking it time and time again, minimising the unforgivable.
But he isnt the flawed nice guy, he is a nasty, bitter, spiteful bastard who knows you so well that he can switch mode in an instant to keep you trapped. Angry and violent one second, then begging the next when you try to leave.
He is the vile arsehole who doesn't give a shit about anyone but himself and who will use and abuse people to get what he feels he deserves.
He will never change, because the act of being the nice guy is frankly exhausting for him.he doesn't think he needs to change.
You are all in extreme danger. The police have evidence. You can go there anytime and decide to press charges. But once you go, there is no going back, it is too dangerous.
You mustn't ever fall for his bullshit ever again, ever. See him as he truly is. A violent bully who attacks the weak.
Once you go through with this it is hard at first, but every day gets easier until the weight lifts off of your shoulders.
Social services helped me to escape. They can help you too.
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