I'd honestly stay single forever if I could, I just feel the societal pressure to settle down sadly. I'm almost 30, and I have had 2 long term relationships of 3 years each and several short things of 1-3 months.
I've been cheated on, in an abusive relationship where I was physically and emotionally abused and with attempted rape.
I've always gone for the wrong men looking back, I dont think any of them were kind or mature enough.
I just hate the whole dating process. So many rules i.e double texting. I wouldn't think twice about double texting a friend or family member.
Then the whole thing of not seeing too keen. Then the when do you have sex.
Then the whole thing of being challenging and not being 'too nice'. Youre expected to have a highly interesting life and be constantly intresting and full of zest.
Then you are expected to be amazing in bed.
You can fall for someone and then they can 'suddenly' lose interest with no warning, or then there's ghosting which seems to be second nature these days.
You can be hurt after years together and investing your life with this person.
I know there are some amazing, kind men out there but I have spent years either getting over some guy or feeling sad over another.
I always get feelings if i'm intimate with someone and things like FWB or casual are alien to me, i'm either all or nothing.
The whole texting thing gives me anxiety. I'm always worrying i've been ghosted or that my texts sound too needy etc.
I do have anxiety which doesnt help and most likely an anxious attachment style.
I have honestly been happiest in my life when i'm single and there's nobody.
I like the closeness and intimacy with a guy but dont feel it's worth it.
Is it OK to be single forever ? Anyone else have similar stories ?