I'm still in shock with all of this. I tried to get advice on another thread but it got lost in all the posts. Myself and my partner have been together for 15 years. We have been through alot together but always said our love for one another got us through it all. I adored him from the first moment I clapped eyes on him and it never went away it got stronger. It took us a long time to start a family but we didn't stress and we were eventually blessed with a gorgeous son. He has Autism but this just makes him extra special and we both dote on him. We had him later than we wanted i was late 30s. We had no support network as family were either no longer with us or estranged. We always had each other and we were happy. All our spare time was spent together as a family and it just made us closer. We were on holiday in August and he told me that he just loved spending his time with us and how much he loved us. I felt more in love than ever. Its tough bringing up an autistic child but as a unit we supported each other. When my partner returned to work things changed. He now hated a job he once loved. He was snappy with me and if i asked him why he would just say it's in my head and it was me being snappy with him. I just tried to be supportive and listen to him so he could unburden. He said the love of his family git6him through. My little boy started p/t nursery and then i found out I was pregnant at 41. Neither of us wanted another child as we were happy as we were. This news turned my partner against me. He blamed me for being pregnant, he didn't want to have the baby but he was blaming me for the option of a termination. He said he was sick of carrying me financially and he hadn't been happy for some time. He spoke to me like I was dirt. This went on for a few days and he was blaming me for all his problems and it was almost as if me being pregnant was my problem alone and I had to deal with it. He softened a little as I told him I was genuinely concerned for his mental heath and he was kidding me on the head and putting kisses on the end of texts. I tried to tell him i needed to schedule an appointment and needed help with caring for our son as i couldn't do it all. I don't have any help from anyone when it comes to childcare. Yesterday he was fine on the way to work (ish) then throughout the afternoon he was texting me stuff about it being my fault as his responsibility of putting his family first has made him trapped. This completely gutted me and i said i wasn't going to force him to be with me if he didn't want to be. He didn't contact me again. He didn't come home from work and his phone was off. I've not heard from him all day, he usually calls or texts to see how our boy has done at nursery. I haven't text him either because I don't see why i should be running around after him when he has no interest in us anymore. I am completely stuck. Im pregnant with no finances of my own and I don't know what to do. I have absolutely no one in this world i can turn to anymore.