Sorry indulgent post by I am fed up. I am drained with the level of responsibility on my shoulders at the moment. I have been the bread winner for the past few years and still I do majority of the mental workload and organising. I think if I were to write it out the list would be 2/3 me and 1/3 him.....
I moved back to be closer to family to help with childcare (their request not ours) and now they are starting to reduce it. To which I don't mind as it's a privilege but mum tells me this the week before the start back at school for this term. I had to ask her to give me a few weeks to find alternative backup but if she has told me this in the spring summer I could have booked a childminder / after school club (they are now full for this term). My husband works from home 2 days a week and says he is too busy to help in the week..
My sister is complete PITA. Her idea of seeing the kids is to come round and sit on her arse and wait to be fed and watered...you ask her for any help and she literally pulls a cat bum face....
My eldest needs extra support with his homework so I race home from work to help him before bed and then work in the evening.
My in-laws are here for the weekend and I feel like I have 2 extra people to look after not not 2 extra people for support.
I am drowning. I feel like shit. And I feel totally on my own. No one has my back. I don't feel like I have any emotional support. I just want to be cared for. Loved. I feel the complete opposite....
I am so so tired. I can't work out if this is just life and get on with it or not.