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My DH has amazon prime, so I usually order through his account. Looking at Christmas presents for him (I know it's early but I like to be organised and spread the cost) I realised that I was logged in to his account. Went to browsing history to delete so that he wouldn't see what I was planning to buy him from my own account. Found porn there, and it has made me feel awful.
I know he watches porn. My line is drawn at anything interactive, so this doesn't cross the line discussed with him.
However, it is for a very specific type of porn that I don't feel comfortable with. I had no idea he fantasises about that. I know I can't censor what he enjoys though, so need to get over it. I feel really shaken though.
The other thing is the full frontal nudity on the picture makes me feel shit. I try not to compare myself to other women, but I am fat, and short, with saggy boobs, and certainly not anybody that anyone would ever fantasise about. We haven't had sex in a long time and I am aware he probably doesn't find me very attractive anymore. I never expected to feel this way about it, but I do. The actress makes me feel completely inadequate.
Please tell me how to shake it off and forgot I saw this?