I'm in a relationship that makes me unhappy at least 75% of the time. We don't live together, have children together or have any financial commitments together but we do work together in a very small team. We've been together for over 3 years and looking back, I don't think I have ever been truly happy with him past the honeymoon period.
So why the fuck can't I bring myself to leave? What the hell is wrong with me? He is like Jekyll and Hyde. Charming, funny at work or if he calls me but more than half the time when we get home he is sullen and grumpy. Tonight he is in the worst mood. Has barely said a word to me, never mind touched me. Asking what is wrong got me the dirtiest look and a response of 'fed up'. He has now charged out without a word, I text him to say if he lets me know when he's on the way back I would put dinner on and got 'no' back.
He hasn't had a hard day at work, he hasn't got lots of stress in his life. There's no reason for him to treat me like this, I know I don't deserve it but I can't bring myself to get my things and go home. I don't know when I became so utterly pathetic. I've been in two previous relationships and left them both when I realised they weren't right for me and it was fairly easy. Anytime I start to seriously consider leaving I start to think about the good times and get emotional, forgetting that the good times seem to get fewer and further between as time goes on.
Has anyone else ever been in this ridiculous position? I feel like I have broken all of my rules for this man and have been so desperate for us to work that I have lost sight of everything. It's really starting to affect my mental health now.