This is a long one but I’m desperate for any advice
I cannot stop crying, my mind is in over drive, my eyes are sore and my life is an absolute shamble. Just as I thought things were getting better they’ve come crashing down again.
Me and my daughters dad split properly at the beginning of the year, we went through a bit of a rocky stage but slowly started getting on for the sake of our daughter. These past few weeks we’ve been messaging and spending time together. He’d been filling my head with stuff about how we can move in together one day, extend our family and saying how nice it’s been spending time with me. There’s been 3 occasions now where we’d planned to go out and he’s cancelled because he went out the night before till silly o’clock so me and my 3 year old are sat ready waiting for nothing. It makes me feel like utter crap, so worthless and just a inconvenience. Last weekend we spent the night together, he invited us round We diddnt go until the evening because yet again he was hungover, he was snapping at our daughter because she was in the way, shouting because she dropped some food and I just felt unwanted. Anyway, I’ve just found out I’m pregnant. I’m absolutely devastated. The ‘man’ who’s told me he wants another baby and non stop banging on about it has now told me I need to have an abortion. From that comment he clearly has no intention of making our relationship work. I feel broken, what on Earth am I meant to do?! For my daughters sake I need to stay strong but I just don’t know how to do it. As a 23 year old, this is not how I expected my life to be