It’s our silver wedding anniversary next week, this should be a cause for celebration apparently, but I feel so down about our marriage that i feel I cannot fake happiness and am looking forwards to the actual day with dread. Sorry if that sounds over dramatic but I am having trouble articulating this, hence having a rambling vent.
After 25 years we have simply grown apart, and I am coming to the realisation that we will separate at some point in future, due to unreasonable behaviour on my dh part as I see it.
Anyway dh asked a few days back what we were doing to celebrate and I told him nothing, and I didn’t want to do anything. His idea would be for me to get friends together either at home, or in a fancy restaurant in London, as he likes to be the big I am throwing money around. I just feel I’d be getting people together under false pretences and do not want to do it. Off he went in a sulk as it’s the done thing to celebrate a 25th and I was being awkward.
I thought no more of it until I found out today that he’s approached my bridesmaids inviting them and their oh to dinner in an expensive restaurant in London sometime in Nov for a celebration.
Which part of no did he not get? Putting aside the fact that I do not want to celebrate, even if I did, I would not choose to do it in this way.
How can I stop this?