I had a fertility MOT when I was 35 and single, and the initial results suggested that my ovarian reserve was significantly lower than average for my age. These tests have their limitations (being unable to measure egg quality is a big drawback), but the feeling that I might have left it too late was horrible for me. So horrible, in fact, that I ended up going it alone, with support from my family. I don’t regret it.
It is a lonely, depressing place to be. But although you’re lonely, you’re far from being alone. Many, many women are in this situation. Some of us just don’t get everything we want, or if we do, it’s not all at once or in the right order. Only you can decide what’s most important to you.
I have a friend who also became a mum on her own. I have a friend who had a baby with Mr Obviously Wrong, and co-parenting with him is not easy. And I have two friends who only wanted children if they were in a decent, stable relationship. They didn’t find the right partners at the right age, so didn’t have kids. All of these women are attractive and good company, by the way, and two of them have led really interesting lives.
I hope you find what you’re looking for.