Am not sure there is anything anyone can say to help me but I am so sick of feeling this way, sorry if this sounds a bit like a wallowing self indulgent pity party.....
My DP works away around 9 days out of 14, so they get many evenings and every other weekend child/responsibility-free.
We can’t change this pattern (short term anyway, hopefully it will change eventually).
When DP is home I can’t just take off and leave them to it as I work week-day evenings and it’s nice to spend time as a family. DP leaves on a Sun afternoon so we get only one non-work evening together a fortnight.
What I do need to change is how I feel and react to it, it’s exhausting in itself. I’m just a seething pit of resentment and jealousy and the sheer monotony of my life (kids, homework, activities, general life admin, etc). I do have a cleaner which is something, but time feels so against us in the family weekends that I can’t ask DP to batch cook/fix stuff/garden the whole time as we (kids and me) would never get to spend family time together.
Any self help pointers?
Thanks for reading this 