I am long term single parent and not actively looking for anyone. No OLD and don’t really go out very much socially or date. If I was to meet someone I really think I would just want a FWB and nothing serious for the plain and simple reason I just don’t want to have to deal with and manage anyone else’s emotions anymore. Selfish, maybe. Don’t care. I do miss sex sometimes but I don’t feel great about myself physically of late and know I need to lose some weight
I have started going out with a different friendship group recently and although it is fun, socialising with men makes me feel a bit rubbish afterwards.
One guy in the group is a bit of a twat but surprise surprise, I am quite physically attracted to him (I have a long relationship history of absolute twats who I find attractive). I’ve never done anything about this attraction, never would and I am not sure anyone is aware of it (naive I am sure) and I don’t think he fancies me anyway
One of the other guys in the group is also single and has made a bit of a move by asking my friend for my number and has text me a few times. He seems nice. But I don’t really fancy him that much because I think he’s more of an emotional investor type rather than a FWB. This is about me, not him, he’s done nothing wrong
AIBU to just to back to hibernating indoors where there are no men. I sound like a spoilt brat when I say this, as I am aware other people would love to meet a partner but I have really shut down all my emotions when it comes to this type of thing and in avoidance mode.
Sorry for rambling on!
With my weight, this is part of the emotions thing. I miss feeling sexy and attractive sometimes but I find it dangerous, so gaining weight is like a security wall that no one ever tries to climb...
Am I a complete weirdo?