I'm a huge pushover and always have been and have been tying to leave my oh for 6 months. He does not tell me he loves me unless it's a 'love ya' responding to me, he will only initiate sex in a very abrupt unromantic manner, he claims that he is depressed but will make no personal changes yet I am catering to him as to try and not upset him.
I like him as a person but I don't feel like I am in love with him. I find myself not wanting to spend time with him otherwise we just sit watching telly all day unless I take the kids out on own. I understand that he has mental health problems but he needs to take some personal responsibility. He will not have a conversation about improving the relationship and will just want to storm out of the house with his bags. At the start of the relationship we had a massive falling out and he claimed he would kill himself when I caught him cheating on me and that's always stuck with me, to make matters worse 2 years after that my nan who I viewed as a second mum killed herself with prescription drugs and alcohol and I missed her call that she tried to make to me hours before. This has given me massive ptsd and a massive fear of losing people. I'm stuck