4 years ago today, ExH arrived at a hotel with the OW to be greeted by a cheap bunch of flowers I'd sent with a card telling him what an idiot he was and that he'd lost me for good.
He thought he was clever telling me he was going away with the lads for a weekend while me & DD were away but I found the hotel confirmation in his work bag and posted on here for help as I didn't know if the booking was for me or for a colleague he was getting disturbingly close to.
So it turned out it was the latter, and I kicked him out.
Since then my life has improved drastically. Looking back I realise that he was (and still is) a narcissist and was crippling me emotionally. Yes the money side of things has been hard, with a teenage daughter to support and very little money coming from ExH but I've really found myself and am so happy and relaxed for most of the time.
But anniversaries that still hurt, and although it's easier as the years go on, it's still hard to control my feelings of anger that a man I loved was so ready to throw nearly 25 years of 'us' away for the OW, despite me offering to try Relate if he promised to never see her again. He said he couldn't do that. Idiot.
Time to give my head a wobble and remind myself of how much better I am now mentally and emotionally and how my friends have been fantastic through the whole thing, just needed to write this down to get it out of my system I think!
Thanks for listening 