I grew up in a very volatile home with parents who didn't love each other and spent most interactions point scoring. Their relationship was toxic and they were isolated from anyone else. Neither had friends and spent all of their time together. They are now divorced and I am NC with my 'D'M due to the shocking way in which she has treated me. I have a successful career and lovely children, home and DH. I feel extremely lucky. I do however worry that this poor role model and my issues with my 'D'M are having a negative impact on my marriage. We have had a few ups and downs, to be expected, but I worry that I am too controlling. I'm not sure what normal looks like and therefore don't trust my own judgement. When my husband tells me he is going out see it as a rejection - which I know is ridiculous! He can sense this and I am worried that I am going to drive him away. Has anyone experienced anything similar or can give me some advice? I don't feel able to talk to anyone in real life so this just goes round and round in my head.