Hi. Sorry if this ends up all over the place. Was with my DP for 9 years and have one DC who is 7. We split up 3 months ago. I was grand until the last two weeks, adrenaline keeping me going maybe and now I’m in bits! Signed off work last week and this week I’m physically sick and I’m bits. I feel so lost and my life is f*cked up. Never thought I’d be 30 and still living at home in a job through an agency. Never changed and was paranoid (with no reason ever to be from me) and after we broke up he’s changed. Is doing all the things I asked him to, going out with friends, going to the gym etc as he never did that when together. I’m just hurting soo much for the future I had looking forward to, another baby I’d have loved (and now I feel old sad ) sorry I’m going on. We were always arguing near the end when he was moody etc. he used to smoke (not cigarettes) and has given up since and seems better. I feel so lost and broke and just can’t think straight my heads going to explode 