Hello, I am new to the site and so glad I found this forum. I am a sahm and wife of 5 kids. Let me tell you life is an emotional rollercoaster, with 5 kids ages 6 and under.
I recently married the father of my 2 youngest, after being together 2 years. I came into this relationship with 3 kids from my previous marriage. This man was great at the beginning, and slowly he has become a narcissist. Not in a abusive way, more like ego macho man, if that makes since. He is a great father and great provider, but sucks as a husband. He is so self centered and only cares about himself. Not a second goes by, that I don't fantasize about leaving. Any time I bring up the subject, his response is well leave I'm not going to stop you. A relationship is suppose to communicate and figure out the issue and try to make it better, instead he is so quick to throw in the towel. We always argue about the smallest stuff. He never makes me feel loved, he only wants to be loved and cared for. My kids absolutely adore him. Here is an example of what I mean. I signed up for a raffle for a mommy makeover, and out of 2000 people I won. I was so excited, cause I never win anything and with 5 kids I never do anything for myself. Well he came home fustrated and blabbing on about work, I tried to tell him about me winning and he just said well I don't care about that, and your not getting any of that stuff done. He sees no wrong in anything he says or does, and never says sorry. I always have to give in. Another thing is, he says my kids shouldn't have contact with their dad, because he is toxic and not very reliable. Which honestly and truly he is, but he shouldn't be the one to make that call. Ladies, I am just so over it. The only reason I stay is cause we live in a small city, and the schools here are amazing. If we separate I have to move back to the big city, and most of the schools there aren't that great. Also, I won't have any form of transportation or income.
Sorry if it's alot, but I just have so much bottled in, I didn't know where else to turn to. My family think I'm crazy and that he is this amazing guy that does no wrong.