abortion / past relationship

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So my partner and I are in a very happy loving relationship. We have a one year old daughter. However my partner had a long term relationship before me lasting 6 years. She fell pregnant however terminated the pregnancy.
I can stop thinking about their baby. Not because I'm jealous or anything but because I look at our daughter and think she could have a sibling or that could be their baby. I don't know why I'm feeling like this, I feel like I've lost a baby.. I can't stop thinking about the baby/them. Do I sound crazy? I can't say this to me partner because it's in the past and don't want to ask him about it.
I've never felt like this but all of sudden since our daughter has turned 1 it's just been very emotional.

I would really appreciate any advice.
Please x

You brain seems to obsessing on this potential sibling. If you feel like you can't speak to your do, I would suggest speaking to your gp or a friend. Perhaps getting it out might help, rather than having it looping around your brain as a secret.

Have you had a chat with your Health Visitor / GP about possible post natal depression? Would you feel the same if the pregnancy ended by natural miscarriage? Xx

Its always sad to think if a loss of life, especially someone that could have been your child's family.

My mother lost a baby and years later when I was born, when I was about 4 I told her that I was a boy and that I wasn't ready the first time round so i went back to heaven but that then I came back to her. Or something to that affect. So i wonder if maybe a soul always finds a way to be with those its meant to be with. Sometimes it just isn't the right time.

@Itsreallymehonest I had very mild PND more baby blues but what do I even say to my gp.. I would deffo feel the same if it was a miscarriage but I keep wanting to know about the relationship and how he felt etc. I'm fine with his whole past just this one thing about the abortion I can't seem to not care about..

@Pinkbonbon that's a lovely comment thank you