At the end of last year, I had a miscarriage. It was completely unexpected and unplanned - I had an IUD which failed. The first I knew of it was horrendous pain and bleeding, which resulted in a trip to the doctors, being sent to the GP, and the diagnosis.
I'm not upset about the miscarriage as such, but more the whole situation. I don't want any more DC but can't get a sterilisation due to my age. So I had the IUD thinking it was the next best thing. But then I got pregnant anyway. I've barely let my partner come near me since because I'm scared it's going to happen again.
We recently had sex using a condom and I was so scared of pregnancy that I ended up getting the morning after pill. I've now gone on the pill in the hope that that will help, although I'm intending on using condoms as well.
My partner has been brilliant and hasn't pressured me at all. But I feel like this isn't fair on him. We had a fairly active sex life before this, but now it's a no unless I'm drunk. It's got to the point where I'm scared to show him any affection in case he misinterprets it as a signal for something more.