Hi all,
Sorry in advance for the bad language.
Am fully aware that some won't like this and would normally be in total agreement but tonight I don't care.
I am 9 months pregnant for the first time, with DP 3 years.. and tonight I looked through his google history. Shameful I know. I let my insecurities get the better of me. Had my suspicions about early Dec last year when he went down the country for work. Google history showed 6 searches for an escort site searching escorts near him and then two profiles he looked at. Have just confronted him, swears he never cheated on me but is acting very nonchalant. 'Yeah I thought about doing it, I was horny, yeah and what?' I am heavily pregnant and very fucking angry right now. Also found a shit load of searches for she male porn. For a whole period of time when he was telling me he had lost his sex drive, there are searches upon searches for shemale porn videos on Porn Hub. I don't mind the porn part(use it plenty myself) but need I be worried about the she male stuff? Says he'd never like to try anal but yet has watched copious amounts of it on pornhub. I'm fuming, I'm crying, all I want is a fucking cigarette. I can get past the she male stuff but ffs the one thing I hate is LYING.. I dunno whether it's because I'm angry that I don't believe him about the escort or because my gut is saying he's lying. What the hell do I do?