I think I'm at a point where I just don't know if I should really try and keep my marraige together. I have been with my husband for 12 years and married for 9. We have 2 children but I still feel second best. He goes out on nights out with girl mates who don't know he is married with his brother who is a compulsive cheat. When I confront him about it he turn it on me although he has cheated on me 6 years ago. I have found pictures on his watsap from a girl in her underwear but yet he flips it and makes me feel like I'm paranoid and living in the past. He is quick to highlight my faults and has zero respect for me he talks to me like crap and hasn't worked a day in 9 years. I know i deserve better but when I think of my kids and how much they love him and how people have it worse I talk myself out of it. I don't know if my thinking a relationship should be better is my ignorance and need a reality check or if I should walk.