Is something going on?

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just after some general advice really, I'm not sure how much of how I'm feeling is 'me' so to speak or some people I'm coming into contact with.
I divorced 2012 after 13 years together. Had a few relationships and flings since. I still live in the same property that I bought with exh. In some ways I feel this has stopped me completely moving on. Anyway, have kept things running, working all hours etc and ds and I are ok.
Recently I have changed job within same company, a sideways move and am finding integrating into new team difficult. I'm also finding some school mums just blanking me? I try to keep on good terms with everyone. It's really starting to get to me and also that I'm still on my own. I'd love to properly move on however equally I wont settle. Am I being paranoid? why are some people being cold towards me? It's making me anxious and like there is something wrong with me. Apologies it sounds all 'me' I just need somewhere to offload. TIA

I think you're putting two and two together and getting five if I'm honest. It sounds like the teething problems with your new team have knocked your confidence and you're scrutinising the rest of your interactions more thoroughly looking for reassurance, but instead you're picking up on perceived slights that you probably wouldn't even notice ordinarily! Or if you did notice them your own self-confidence would be enough to mean you didn't dwell on them and forgot them as soon as they happened.

Whilst I can't rule it out I'd say it's really unlikely you suddenly now have a sign on your forehead saying "weirdo" and much more likely you're experiencing higher than usual levels of anxiety. If it carries on for any length of time I would think you'd want to speak to someone about it.

Actually you've noted that you're not 100% comfortable with where life's at at the moment. Maybe making some of those changes in pursuit of your own happiness will help you get your mojo back :)

@crankyassnoperope thank you. I just needed perspective and maybe confirmation that it's my thinking that is at fault. I'm being sensitive etc and yes my confidence has been knocked. I do need to make changes yes, I've been saying it for a long time however I dont know how to go about it financially and as a single parent. I've never taken the next step..
I'm going to see GP about anxiety