Struggling and tempted to take him back!

[GirlOnIt]

Posted about ExDp and his dickhead ways. He was controlling and emotional abusive, and I know I'm better out of the relationship.

But I'm struggling so much right now. I'm back at work and feel like I've been thrown straight back into it (staffing issues). Ds is just not sleeping, he's waking up to breastfeed three/four times a night at least. He's got really clingy and won't let me put him down. I'm pregnant too so I'm absolutely exhausted.

Ex doesn't have him overnight as he wasn't settling so I'm getting no nights off and I just don't know if I can do it.
Ex has suggested moving back in, staying in the spare room so he can help more. I don't think it's a good idea but I'm so exhausted it's feeling like my only option.

Not sure what I'm wanting, just a hand hold really to say it gets easier. Because right now it's hard with one and I'm thinking how the hell will I cope with two! Tempted to stop breastfeeding Ds but not sure where to start with that either and if it will make him worse. My mums having while I'm at work and he's on through the day for her. But it means I don't want to ask more of her, when she's already spending her holidays looking after my child.

Does dad take him at all so you can have a break?
Don’t let him move back in whatever you do. Can’t he take him one or two nights a week?

How old is ds? Unfortunately he has to learn to settle with his dad so maybe you should persevere with this. Are you positive he's not settling and its not just your ex over-exaggerating to get out of his responsibilities? I know its hard and you may feel guilt but, you're not together anymore, so children need to understand this as early as possible to give them time to adapt. He's not going to adapt if you avoid the situation.
Do not let him move back in, insist he has DS more often if he really wants to help you.

Ds isn't one yet, so still young. I do believe he was unsettled, Ex is wanting him overnight but he won't take a bottle for him st the moment. He was doing fine before.

He sees him here two night and baths him puts him to bed and then either Saturday or Sunday day full day. So I get a day off, but tend to use that to clean, iron get everything sorted so I'm less busy through the week and sometimes need to do some stuff for actual work too.

He's slept for one hour tonight, that's it so far. I don't know that's happened to my good sleeping baby. It's killing me though, I really need my sleep.