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Ruined exe's life and now he's threatening to kill himself! Am I an AWFUL human being?

35 replies

LadyV1984 · 30/07/2019 22:57

Hi all, I will give you all a brief run down of the situation. 6 months after separating from my husband I met someone new. We started out as friends but got on so well that we quickly became a couple. Right from the start he told me he'd had issues with cocaine addiction but that it was all in the past. He had lost access to his baby daughter because of it and he was really sorting his life out to get her back. He told me all sorts of stories about his ex, how she was violent towards him and that this had driven him to the drug use. After a few months of being together and proving he was clean he was allowed to start having supervised access to his daughter again. A month or so later his whole personality changed and I suspected he was using again. Doing a bit of digging I discovered empty coke wraps in his pockets on several occasions but he always managed to talk his way out of it by saying they had been a friends or been in his pocket for months. The lies were constant and I knew he was always getting high any chance he could get. Anyway the final straw came when his daughter was allowed to stay over one weekend and he had to nip away late at night for ciggies and would take his baby a drive to get her to sleep. The next day I checked his phone and found he had been out picking up cocaine and getting high whilst his daughter was in his care. I was absolutely disgusted and threw him out and told his ex what he had done. She told me many stories and I discovered he had told lots of lies about their reltionship and the violence, it was him used to beat her up! She has now stopped all his access to the baby and he hasnt seen her for 2 months. He started going to drug counsilling but was found with more cocaine on him on several occasions since. I've had messages from him saying he has nothing to live for and he is going to kill himself. I feel as though I'm responsible for ruining his life. Am I a terrible person?

OP posts:
ittakes2 · 31/07/2019 09:09

You are an amazing person - it took courage to do what you did - you have possibly saved the life of that little girl. He is an adult and chose his path - you are not responsible for him walk away.

theunrivalledjoysofparenting · 31/07/2019 09:09

The only thing you did wrong was believe his lies.

He,’s ruined his life,, not you. He’s a lying drug addict. Bin him and block him. His poor baby.

katewhinesalot · 31/07/2019 09:15

Concentrate on the fact that you've helped his baby. The baby is the innocent one in all this who can't help herself. Your ex bought all this on himself. Don't feel guilty.
Just examine why you stayed with him so long when you knew he was using again. You should have left him immediately.

HeyMonkey · 31/07/2019 09:20

Of course it's not your fault. Block him.

Sagradafamiliar · 31/07/2019 09:25

He's a wasteman. The only concern for me is that you didn't see through his bullshit stories about his ex at the beginning. Biggest red flag going, along with being a druggie.

LadyV1984 · 31/07/2019 10:38

Thank you all so much for your replies and support, they have all made me feel better and realise that no matter how much he tries to guilt me I know I did the right thing. I also have children and would NEVER allow anyone to put them in that sort of danger and I absolutely adore his baby girl. He is a shit person who doesn't deserve to be in her life. I know I have been naive and gullible. After my marriage breakdown (which ended badly) I was put on strong antidepressants which drastically altered my thinking for a while, I was in a bad place and lonely and HE IS SUCH A CONVINCING LIAR. It has become second nature to him that he no longer knows what the truth is. After the incident when his daughter was in his care I supported him as a friend for a while going to his meetings and such like as her swore he wanted his life back. Then one evening straight after an appointment where he sobbed his heart out to the docs he went straight out and scored again and I washed my hands of him!! I have blocked him but he just calls from different numbers so now if I don't know the number I won't answer! All his family know what he has done but they all mollycoddle him making excuses and blame his ex and myself for not letting him see his daughter and his life being f**ked up. His ex and I get along well now, she's really lovely and she really appreciates everything I have done. I still get to visit the little one a lot with my kids which is lovely. He really is a piece of scum but if someone actually did take their life because they blamed me for ruining it then I don't know how I would ever deal with it!

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DeRigueurMortis · 31/07/2019 14:14

OP it's highly unlikely he'd commit suicide.

It's the "perfect" way to however to try and manipulate someone else into behaving in ways they otherwise would not.

However, IF he did then you you would deal with it by reminding yourself that this was yet another choice he's made whist in the grip of addiction.

It was nothing you could possibly control.

The alternative was to continue to allow him to put his baby at risk. That would be something to feel guilty about.

You did the right thing, regardless of the outcome for your ex. That's what you hold on to.

HypatiaCade · 31/07/2019 14:19

Oh OP, there is every chance he could die, because he is a drug abuser. But that is the case, whether you had stepped in or not. THAT is not in your control only his. Now, at least his little girl isn't at risk. You could well have saved her life.

Jaffacakesaremyfave · 31/07/2019 14:37

OP, he sounds like a narcissist and the threats to kill himself are a form of emotional blackmail and he has no intention of doing it. It's likely he doesnt have access to his daughter because he's an abusive, manipulative, lying, violent addict and his current situation is a reflection of the terrible choices he's made.

I cant tell you how much if a lucky escape you've had. He would have destroyed your life if you let him. You owe this man nothing, he is a classic abuser and you need to block him from all forms of contact if you haven't already done so.

DodgeRainClouds · 31/07/2019 16:05

If you had done nothing and his baby daughter had been injured or worse in his care then you would have been a terrible person. In this circumstance you did the best you could in an awful situation, the baby needed to come first. Well done!

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