Hi my partners recently started being abusive towards me he’s always grumpy or miserable about something and I find myself constantly trying to be perfect so he doesn’t get angry I can’t disagree with him about anything or he says I’m undermining him and “do I want him to just kill him self” he’d never been this bad before but has always been a bit overreacting to small things I’ve lost my job recently because he’s always start an argument just before I was meant to leave and drive off leaving me with no childcare as I worked nights this was a nightmare as they often had ten minutes notice before my shift started in the last 3 weeks he’s been quite aggressive not loads but enough to make me scared he pushed me onto the bed the other week and started whispering horrible stuff about me in my ear and cried about it afterwards and apologised then about a week later I had a sickness bug and the house was a mess because I could barely move off the sofa to clean it was only 10 am and he started shouting at me calling me a fat lazy b*tch and saying how I must just do this stuff to wind him up. Then today he was upset again about his ex and I asked him not to take it out on me and as I was walking out of the room he punched me in the back I can’t leave this week as I’m looking after 5 children and I have no money at all I feel like I hate him and even his smell makes me angry but I just can’t leave I’m isolated from friend and my mum has mental health issues so I can’t ask her for help I know I have to leave so I don’t even know why I’m writing this but I’m upset because ive worked so hard since my first son was born to get to where I am now as I was alone at the time and now I have a reasonably nice house and 2 lovely children plus 3 lovely stepchildren I lived in the house before I met him and I’m just so angry that I let myself get in this situation and how quickly he’s changed since our son was bornAnd now I’m gong to be back I where I was for 5 years but worse as older and less support and no job. I wish I’d never met him now but I am terrified to be on my own with 2 children a huge amount of debt that I’ve just managed to get under control and now is going to spiral again