I feel like everything I do for my partner gets pushed a side. I live on my own with barley any money and he lives at home with parents, full time job and nice car, I no he does alot for me and recently tuck me on holiday, the first night he was saying he loved me and then it all sudden turned into an argument. He says I use him for money and I'm the route course of his depression. He even threatened to take his own life infront off me and blame me. I stood up to him and shouted shut up and he pushed me into a chair and I banged the back off my head really badly. He threw all are clothes everywhere and kept threatening to go home and go our separate way, rest of the holiday was lovely but when we came home he wasn't well and I asked " are you ok " and went to put my arm around him to show I care.. He then goes and tells his mum and dad that I had a go at him because he wasn't showing me any affection as he's not been well, next day he goes out with his friend after taking me home saying he's still sick ends up eating pizza and junk all night when he says he's ill and vomiting. I buy him things like trainers and aftershave when I can afford it and he says all I do is buy him a crappy pair trainers and he takes me on holiday. We're normally happy and been talking about getting engaged and looking at rings he's now saying we should leave it after months off getting excited about it. He also thinks the next job I get I'll leave because I wasn't happy and left my previous job due to health so I'm going back to college to do a make up course. I try my hardest though even if I cook for him or buy him the odd gift or write him a little note I try but he throws everything back in my face and makes me out to be a monster and a user and says i don't appreciate him I don't no what to do. I have no friends and no close family I'm really lonely xx