So ..I lost my brother, then i lost my dad very quickly, followed by another family member getting cancer. I went through a stage of raging grief and then i feel like i sort of woke up. I suddenly realised its my life and that i should be living it for me because damn i might die tomorrow. I have become more selfish and reckless and wild. I still love my family with all my heart but now know my marriage isn't enough i want to live life to the full. Everyone says i have changed that i am a different person. but i am the person i was before i got weighed down with responsibility. My friends (newer ones) think i am having a mid life crisis and behaving like a tart.(i flirt thats all).older friends see the wild side that was subdued. life is short i just want to live it without regrets... does anyone else feel this way?