I don't know what I want to achieve with this thread really. I think I just need to tell someone and rage at men in general for being such pathetic, faithless bastards who are happy to drag everyone down with them.
Was a single parent for 17 years bringing up my son all alone, had days when I just wanted to die with exhaustion and lonliness but he's a lovely man now and I adore him. I can always call him when I need to and vice versa.
I bust a gut to buy my own home working all hours for years and was finally comfortable after scraping by for many years.
Met my now ex husband and he was the love of my life, I was so happy not to be alone any more, at 40 I was finally married and settled and happy. I'd brought up DS well and he'd left home, I had him very young.
A really good life beckoned.
Without going on to infinity, or drip feeding the next 15 years were awful, he spent all my money, I paid off all his debts on my mortgage, I put up with his latex fetish, endless losing of jobs and letting me down and finally when I became really ill he dumped me with no money and no car. We're divorced now, his divorce petition was really cruel and all lies.
Result, I'm partially disabled, lost my job, having to sell my house, all my hopes and dreams of a comfortable future destroyed.
I feel so devastated that if I could afford a rope I'd hang myself.
Its been three years since the divorce and he's completely ghosted me.
I tried so hard for the last three years to keep all of the balls in the air but it's all come to a head and I simply can't afford to live here any more.
My beautiful dream home i'd hoped to grow old in in a lovely area will be gone soon, I've got 4 jobs, work 6 days a week and i'm in constant pain.
If I'd stayed single I'd have been taking early retirement by now enjoying my lovely home that would have been paid for by now.
It was insidious, it happened gradually over years so I didn't see it coming and suddenly dumping me made it all fall apart.
I'm never having another man in my life again, never. I don't trust them, I look awful from the stress and my life has been ruined, all because I dared to love somebody.
How dare he treat me like this. I hope he gets mangled by a bus.
Thank you for listening.