Did anyone else have a parent(s) who were sadistic?

[PennyPeaShooter]

I did.

Not sure I'll ever get over it.

I don't but I didn't want to leave you alone. So sorry to hear this. Do you need to vent? Listening/reading if so. X

My late mother was a sadist.

Thanks Spanish I was just sitting here this afternoon, remembering some of the more 'out there' things that happened to me. There is no excuse that as an adult, my father didn't understand his behaviour was wrong - he knew. But he got away with it scot-free. So fucking sick.

Do you still see them? I'm not sure what you mean by saddist, is it physical abuse?

Physical yes but also subtle psychological head-fuck stuff. Downright twisted & nasty. & I was just a defenceless little child with no alternative but to go along with it. I wouldn't have dared run away - there was nowhere to go. No I don't see them. I had to lose my whole extended family to save my sanity. I'd love to type here the particular event that I've been thinking of this afternoon but I think MN would take the thread down if I did.

I did not get a good night hug - I got a crushing handshake that hurt like hell. It was supposed to be a game about getting the best position to squeeze the other person's hand, but it was a game I could never win so I would go to bed in pain every night. I have a long list of similar things my NSDF would do. He was a bully and a sadist.

I'm now in my 50s and the older I get, the angrier I get.

No I haven't but do have a fragile relationship with my parents. Hope you are okay.

Hi Penny,
No I don't think that we ever get over it. I'm 35 years NC with the woman who was supposed to love and cherish me. She enjoyed abusing me I think and took great pleasure in identifying my 'transgressions' and then administering just 'punishments' as I was just a liar according to her. I would start to cry because I knew what was coming and according to her my tears were proof of my guilt.

I am 60% deaf in one ear and being repeatedly punched on the side of my head over many years.

I have permanent pain in the base of my spine where she punched and kicked my coccyx and shattered it.

I have a permanent round scar on my arm the size of a cigarette end from where she allowed her boyfriend to stub his fag out on me in order to buy my silence at her affair.

I was sexually abused by the boyfriends daughter every night we had a 'sleepover' when my dad was away working.

I have flashbacks every day and I'm now in my early fifties. Therapy has worked to a certain extent but I just now live with it.

There is no hell that is deep enough for some people. There is no excuse for what she did to me. She denies everything and chooses to continue to tell lies about my childhood. She does not understand why I have kept my children from her. I hope that in her next life she is punished for her terrible crimes because she will not be in this life. She is in her seventies so her trip to hell will come soon I suppose and her respectable woe is me facade will count for nothing so take comfort Penny, the reckoning will not come in this life but the next - at least that is what I comfort myself with. That and the fact that my DC's do not know her and now choose not to know her and that hurts her more than anything else.

I'll never understand how parents can do this to their children. The people who are supposed to love and protect them the most. It's just unthinkable. I'm sorry for all of you on this thread that didn't have that. It's so very sad.

I think there's an ongoing thread titled "but we took you to stately homes", (something like that) where people share stories and support each other with the journey on from abusive parents and childhoods. Maybe see if you can find it, there are lots of people there that will hear you and understand