Why can't I end it?

[SadVillageGirl]

I'm really struggling and I don't know why I'm so weak. My boyfriend of 2.5 years is no good for me. He's a drinker, he talks to me like shit and he's cheated on me. But every time I try to end it he first of all gets really nasty and says horrible things to me, then he threatens to kill himself, then he's really loving. My head is all over the place. I've tried going no contact but then he messaged my adult daughter saying he was worried about me. So I keep in the relationship because it seems easier as it keeps him happy, but it's destroying my self esteem. How can I be strong?

Could you go NC again but this time give your daughter a heads up that you're going to break up? Then she can ignore/block him too.

Ni don't stay with him to keep him happy. LTB do not waste one more minute on this toxic person. He is no good for you. Tell anybody he is likely to contact to block him in advance and then go NC. You are worth so much more than this

He's abusive. I'd get some therapy/counselling to help ASAP.

Just go NC again. He won’t kill himself. This is part of a pattern that abusive men repeat. He just wants to keep you in line and under control.

Tell your dd he is abusive and to ignore him.

Then do the Freedom Programme.