I know I don't want him back because I know it won't work and I don't want a relationship like we'd end up having. But I'm struggling because I miss the good bits and I still look at him and I'm attracted to him.
All my past relationships have ended and I've not had anything to do with them for a while and I've gone out with friends and enjoyed being single. But in this case, we've got Ds so have to see each other and I'm pregnant and my friends are great but none of them have Dc and they're all at the big night out stage still, which isn't appealing to me right now.
The combination has me sat home alone missing him though. I'm trying my best to keep busy, been out shopping today and plan on bingeing stranger things tonight, but I miss having someone with me, I miss the cuddles and kisses and I really miss sex 
How do you stop looking and thinking about them in that way? In time will the attraction just go away? Or do you always have a little something there and you just learn to live with it?